Aub sent me these delightful flowers on Mother’s Day and they bloomed the next day into this…
I thought it’d be funny to use the word “musing” because it seems to be a buzz word in the philosophy student world. One guy in particular really liked to use it. He spent a lot of time musing. I thought he sounded ridiculous. Maybe it’s appropriate here? Or maybe it’s never appropriate.
Three Mother’s Days have made a forever imprint on my memory in the 26 years I’ve been a Mom. The day we blessed Aub (not even 2 weeks old) and the two that we were allowed to talk to Master D on his mission. Most likely there won’t be another one that sticks with me until TT goes on a mission. That’s not to say I am ungrateful for being spoiled and treated well by B and kids. I just really treasure those memories and moments. Master D did send me an email saying that his mission Pres was allowing him to skype at a certain time on Sunday. It was better to have him here!
With the death of Maya Angelou last week (she’s an author & poet that I liked) I ‘mused’ on her quote “When you know better, you DO better”. It’s one of my favorites and I have adopted this as sort of my motherhood mission statement. Lord knows, as well as B and kids, that I haven’t made all the best mothering choices. I’ve read about, watched and studied various parenting experts and other moms attempting to figure out HOW to be the best mom that I could. After an overwhelming amount of information I’ve come to a simple epiphany that reacting to what was going on has created the most regret in my life, rather than pondering, praying, accepting what is and/or …musing and then acting. It really sucks to realize this at age 45 when I really could have used this realization at 20! Thus, Aub’s description of “first human experiment” is painfully accurate. I could pontificate a good long time about this subject but I will just wish every mother out there a late Happy Mother’s Day. I know we are all in it together doing the best that we can with the knowledge that we have. And I hope I did a little better last year than I did the year before. By the time they are all moved out, maybe I’ll have it mastered?
My kids think they are hilarious. This was my gift from Master D and TT – from Izzie. They are pretty darn funny but don’t tell them I said that.
