Aub sent me these delightful flowers on Mother’s Day and they bloomed the next day into this…
I thought it’d be funny to use the word “musing” because it seems to be a buzz word in the philosophy student world. One guy in particular really liked to use it. He spent a lot of time musing. I thought he sounded ridiculous. Maybe it’s appropriate here? Or maybe it’s never appropriate.
Three Mother’s Days have made a forever imprint on my memory in the 26 years I’ve been a Mom. The day we blessed Aub (not even 2 weeks old) and the two that we were allowed to talk to Master D on his mission. Most likely there won’t be another one that sticks with me until TT goes on a mission. That’s not to say I am ungrateful for being spoiled and treated well by B and kids. I just really treasure those memories and moments. Master D did send me an email saying that his mission Pres was allowing him to skype at a certain time on Sunday. It was better to have him here!
With the death of Maya Angelou last week (she’s an author & poet that I liked) I ‘mused’ on her quote “When you know better, you DO better”. It’s one of my favorites and I have adopted this as sort of my motherhood mission statement. Lord knows, as well as B and kids, that I haven’t made all the best mothering choices. I’ve read about, watched and studied various parenting experts and other moms attempting to figure out HOW to be the best mom that I could. After an overwhelming amount of information I’ve come to a simple epiphany that reacting to what was going on has created the most regret in my life, rather than pondering, praying, accepting what is and/or …musing and then acting. It really sucks to realize this at age 45 when I really could have used this realization at 20! Thus, Aub’s description of “first human experiment” is painfully accurate. I could pontificate a good long time about this subject but I will just wish every mother out there a late Happy Mother’s Day. I know we are all in it together doing the best that we can with the knowledge that we have. And I hope I did a little better last year than I did the year before. By the time they are all moved out, maybe I’ll have it mastered?
My kids think they are hilarious. This was my gift from Master D and TT – from Izzie. They are pretty darn funny but don’t tell them I said that.
No one knows how to be a great mother at 20! I’m shooting for being a good grandmother 🙂
You are an awesome mother and I love you!
Love Becca
I’ve heard it said that each generation should build on the next. You have done that in the mothering area for sure! I don’t think we ever can be perfect at it because we are not perfect, but gratefully, I believe the Atonement of Christ bridges the gap if we accept it and put our faith in Him. AT age 78, and 32 grandchildren later, along with 5 gg’s, I realized that reacting is the weakness of us all. I also realize that we react out of fear because we care so much, so I believe it is forgivable through the above mentioned way.
You amaze me at how quickly you seem to learn and follow the quote you love – When we know better, we do better.”
What Mom said. And what Becca said. I also love that quote by Maya Angelou, which has led to my overriding mantra for Motherhood and all other things in life… Start where you are. Every day. And “one better choice at a time.” Also, probably the biggest lesson I have learned over the past nine or so years, post-divorce, is that you really do have to let go of the way you think things are “supposed to be.” They never are.You are doing great. Love you!